How it all started

Summer of 2016 and a huge discomfort to be myself …I hated everything about myself and on top of that I had awful back pain and all that made from me at the time a very difficult person to have nearby. My manager at that time told me about the fact that she is a Pilates certified Instructor and out of competitive spirit I’d said to myself -I could do that also without knowing that it’s going to change my whole life, that decision.
I started the course , lots of stress, couldn’t enjoy at all because in my head everything serious should be achieved with lots of nights lost, because I was struggling also to maintain my social lifestyle. In 6 months I graduated and also started to teach at a Pilates studio, thanks to the same manager that told me about it.
I can’t tell how many moments in which I wanted to walk away from the class because I found it very difficult to prioritize all information that should be transmitted and to correct an average of 12 persons/ class .As years passed by I started working at other studios and become more comfortable in this activity
but also started seeing improvements in my posture and in the quality of my life -the pain was gone and I became more aware of my posture (because I was the teacher and in my head is equivalent with an Mentor that should inspire people that come to the gym).
I was also paying attention on what I eat because in the meantime I became lactose intolerant (in all I was doing I was nowhere -everything was for the people around me and it became a marathon in which my body was trying to alert me but I was gracefully ignoring it ). The attention for food arise also from my past in which I walked from anorexia with amenorrhea-my body was shutting down in University at overweight afterwards . In all that, all adjustments were done only for the ones around me, but nothing about my inner self -I had no clue who I was and what I wanted.
In the meantime the marathon included lots of certifications because Pilates had become my happy moment as it was the only moment in which I was sitting with myself in myself: Fisio Pilates-Pelvic girdle and Shoulder girdle, Fit Mom in Action , Nutritionist course , Pilates with accessories, Protocol for LIA recovery and a second Pilates Certification -I renewed my wows with Pilates :)))).
In the background I had lost my parents, lost 2-3 important, people in my life but I was displaying a perfect life with lots of activities traveling the world and ignoring the anxiety that had brought me to a moment in which I started seeing a therapist because everything about this world was wrong and I was right and felt incredibly alone even though I was surrounded by lots of people.
Until pandemic hit I was a typical Millennial that chased diplomas and competed with other without asking myself why my chronic thyroid and other physical conditions were present, but as we entered in lockdown I had no choice but to stay with myself -from 17 hrs of Pilates /week and a full time office job I faced my worst fear -to stay with myself and tried everything to run from me, including getting back together with my ex after we ended our 12yrs relationship .
As you scroll down my wall you can see how fast and far I was running until , Luna my dog had chosen us and pulled the brake. Needless to say how much It felt right to stay home with my dog, to receive unconditioned love and to organize my schedule in order to be able to take her out 3 times/day . She is the best companion for running , for trainings and playing so she brought out a part that was denied lots of years-the human that needed love and had love to give , the person who needed to sleep and the one who learned that there is nothing to fix in others, there are simply people with the same vibration and others that chase you for what you show on social media and treat you like an object if you allow them.
Renounced at the classes in the Pilates studio as the pandemic gave me time to understand that the idea of Pilates in a studio is kind of limitative as we were closed but I continued to train at home and registered classes for the studio clients .
I recognize now that I have an increased amount of energy that I could use it doing something benefic for me and the persons who need my help, but it’s spent wisely now that I recognize that I need rest and priorities . Because that helps me maintain a constant level of joy that comes from doing what you love without feeling that you need to sacrifice yourself for that.
This is how Proud Project born and I started teaching online and working with people that wanted to change their eating habits that brought them into a shape in which they don’t feel well and they need nutrition advices. After years of hating everything about myself and ignoring myself I reached the bottom and understood that all this was necessary to became a person that can listen without judging , look without labeling and help genuinely people that may face one similar situation and got stuck and need help.
I can proudly say now that I am qualified by 35 years of life , 6 years of Pilates trainings and 2 years of Nutrionist coach practice. What else ?! I won’t stop because I understood that this life is about the process and knowledge in the only value that won’t fade and learning it’s not a MUST it’s a WANT .All people in my life are a lesson, my dog is a lesson and by practicing presence every day I manage to be at peace, said sometimes, happy sometimes but I accept, honor life . am grateful for all I lived and look forward with curiosity what this project will bring .
I’ll stop now and I will listen your story and then we will see together what we need to adjust in order to achieve your best shape and state of mind through MOVEMENT and NUTRITION.

 

 

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